1. |
Heavy For A While
01:55
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Containing my frustration is a gift I’ve always hated
I’ve learned to hold it in
Whatever it is
Holding your manipulation in my body
As a story for another time
I’ll write it out for you
Line by line
You’ll be heavy for a while
It’ll stay until it’s fine in your mind
Poke a hole in me
I won’t even run
I’m trying to be close and vulnerable
Ohhh
You’ll be heavy for a while
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2. |
Lean In
03:38
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I can hear the sound through the walls
And I’m on the outside
No windows no doors
Now I’m the one with the light
I played the hand I was dealt
I’m a high dollar liquor on the bottom shelf
I cast a hundred lines
With no reply
With no reply
Can I lean in
Can I lean a little closer
Can I lean a little closer
Oh
Oh
Oh
I’m in a crowded room
no matter what I do
I have no equity
In a masterpiece
Can I lean in
Can I lean a little closer
Can I lean a little closer
Can I lean in
Can I lean a little closer
Can I lean a little closer
Can I Lean in
Can I lean in
Can I lean in
Oh
Oh
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3. |
Settle My Mind
04:42
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MMMMM
MMMMM
MMMMM
MMMMM
I’m not convinced moving again
Will help me settle my mind
I didn’t notice my shadow when I wanted the sun
Warmth in my bed or in the soul of someone
My arm’s in a sling for a couple more weeks
And my favorite mug is shattered in the sink
Joel’s cigarettes blow across the yard
I’m going on a walk but I wanna run
MMMMM
MMMMM
I can’t make myself
Oh I can’t make myself
I can’t make myself love this
I have what I need
Time slows down for me
But I can’t make myself love this
Love this
MMMMM
MMMMM
I bit my nails too short again
I brought home a cat and I didn’t ask
All my mail is unopened in piles
And I’m taking long showers till the water runs out
There’s only one leaf left hanging on the tree
I’ll wait till it falls to rake up the leaves
I’m scared to leave but I’m more afraid to stay
If I stay will everything stay the same
MMMMM
MMMMM
I can’t make myself
Oh I can’t make myself
Oh I can’t make myself love this
I have what I need
Times slowed down for me
But I can’t make myself love this
Love this
MMMMM
MMMMM
MMMMM
MMMMM
Don’t look
Don’t Speak
Don’t Look away from me
Don’t look
Don’t Speak
Don’t Look away from me
Don’t look
Don’t Speak
Don’t Look away from me
MMMM
MMMM
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4. |
Two Circles
02:59
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I am yellow
You are green
Just two circles side by side
I don’t think that you know me
We have have that in common
I hate my handwriting
And nothing about you
Wish I could see you like a stranger
Can I bum a piece of gum
You wear the same clothes
You tell the same jokes
You just got older
You just got older
Don’t make you wiser
You never grew up
You just got older
You just got older
Yesterday I was twenty five
Tomorrow I am terrified
I’m not good at small talk
I was born with crooked teeth
You’re a chorus I’m a verse
But I don’t have any words
I hum and I hope
You understand what I don’t
You wear the same clothes
You tell the same jokes
You just got older
You just got older
Don’t make you wiser
You never grew up
You just got older
You just got older
You wear the same clothes
You tell the same jokes
You just got older
You just got older
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5. |
Temporary Everything
04:26
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Temporary everything
You get me everytime
I never see you coming
It’s not like I could hide
Move the couch across the room
Just to put it back again
Sometimes I’m too
Critical, Cynical
Lately everything’s
Existential
Monumental
The end of the fucking world
I’m feeling Jaded
I’m feeling Jaded
Thought I’d of made it
By now
Nothing for my energy
I’m still who I used to be
I can’t get back the time
Still can’t make up my mind
I’m comfortable in chaos
But I crave control
Sometimes I’m too
Critical, Cynical
Lately everything’s
Existential
Monumental
The end of the fucking world
I’m feeling Jaded
I’m feeling Jaded
Thought I’d of made it
By now
I’m feeling Jaded
I’m feeling Jaded
I thought I’d of made it
By now
By now
By now
By now
Ohhhh
Mmmm
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6. |
Darts
04:49
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I’m waiting on the other side of a black hole
I can’t see the horizon
Reflection is denying
I’m muted and sedated
Lost in translation
Time isn’t always on your side
I thought I missed my turn
My existence is different than my fiction
I might change my mind
Hand on my chest
You’re all I have
I can’t imagine when
That will be enough
My fingers are flat from
holding the mirror
I’m not the same person
here than I am alone
Time isn’t always on your side
I thought I missed my turn
My existence is different than my fiction
I might change my mind
AHHHH
AHHHH
AHHHH
We should play darts
Make a game out of targets
Tape our dreams to the board
Maybe you’ll hit mine and
I will hit yours
Gravity pulls
A ladder descending
I’m dead in the ground
I’m alive in the womb
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7. |
Monstera
03:21
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There’s a green exit sign
Over a red door
But you lean on
The cards you draw
See Saw See Saw
Like a migratory bird
That tried to stay
Saturn returned and went away
Ahhhh
Drummer drummer
Forward seems so far from you
Bummer Bummer
Half of me and all of you
Five more leaves
Since I showed up
Ahhhh
You’ve got the locks and the keys
I think that your worst enemy
Looks a lot like you
I will wash the sheets
I will make the bed
Then wait for you to knock again
Ahhhh
Drummer drummer
Forward seems so far from you
Bummer Bummer
Half of me and all of you
Five more leaves
Since I showed up
A mile a minute with a light load
But I can’t keep hiding what I’m running from
You lent me shade and vitamins
Rare coins and extended stays
High fives instead of handshakes
Hell is real and you lived to tell
I felt and seen it in the hands I’ve held
Five more leaves since I showed up
Five more leaves since I showed up
Five more leaves since I showed up
Ahhhh
Five more leaves since I showed up
Five more leaves
Five more leaves
Ahhhh
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8. |
Like Flies
05:05
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Steeple oh steeple
Why are your people
Running out the door
I watch myself from the outside
There’s less of me the more I see
Mold and erase me
Still on your throne
Selling what you don’t own
Levied permission
A curtain with holes
Innocence you stole
Whisper or whistle
Building your house on top of the sand
Pray the wind doesn’t blow
Turning your backs raising your hands
Oh god what a show
Everyone’s closing their eyes
Everyone’s closing their eyes
They won’t stop
They won’t stop
You are a mistress
I’m a contortionist
Building and tearing down
Baptize me in the deep end
Dead bodies floating
Fleur-de-li on the wall
It’s the calm before the fall
Lost tracks in the cold snow
You hide in the shadow
Wolf in sheep’s skin
Tell me all of my sin
I don’t know how to say help
Building your house on top the sand
Pray the wind doesn’t blow
Turning your backs raising your hands
Oh god what a show
Everybody’s closing their eyes
Everybody’s closing their eyes
They won’t stop
They won’t stop
They won’t stop
They won’t stop
They won’t stop
They won’t stop
They won’t stop
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9. |
Postcard
04:01
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Save me a seat at the table
I promise to laugh at your jokes
I've been thinking about the time
I wish I owned but its borrowed
Yellow when I close my eyes
Blue like tomorrow
Red like an obituary
A postcard that I never sent
I have a hard time letting go
I have a hard time letting go
Sometimes I forget
That you’re not grown up yet
I heard a sound back then
I can’t get it out of my head
I almost cried
When the century plant fell
It hadn’t bloomed yet
I think I know how it felt felt
I have a hard time letting go
I have a hard time letting go
I have a hard time letting go
It would be a starry night
If it weren’t for this cloudy sky
So I‘ll stand here to watch the rain
Underneath the street lights
Yellow when I close my eyes
Blue like tomorrow
Read like an obituary
A postcard that I never sent
I have a hard time letting go
I have a hard time letting go
I have a hard time letting go
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10. |
End Scene
03:42
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Emotions are illusive
I swear I felt them once
They are tough to tame and easy to lose
Put them in a song where they can
Live forever and not at all
I never see it coming
The end of the scene
When the curtain drops
It falls on me
And I don’t wanna hurt
I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna hurt
I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna hurt
I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna hurt
I don’t wanna hurt
When the curtain drops
It falls on me
Two nice people talk
I sit and listen
I am there and I am not
Am I in the crowd or on the stage
If I’m acting I don’t know my lines
I never see it coming
The end of the scene
When the curtain drops
It falls on me
And I don’t wanna hurt
I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna hurt
I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna hurt
I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna hurt
I don’t wanna hurt
When the curtain drops
It falls on me
Ooooh
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BYLAND Seattle, Washington
Byland is the moniker and last name of Seattle-based, Albuquerque-raised, Cinematic Indie Rock artist, Alie Renee. Her dynamic sound is often characterized by arrangements full of intriguing time signatures and unexpected chord changes, tethered by timeless lyrics and vocal vulnerability. For her, music is about taking time to create space to process emotions. ... more
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